Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Sorry to Offend.

So, I have another rant on my mind. Please pay no mind if you fall into the category of what I'm about to bash on so please do not comment angrily, I just really hate pregnant ladies. They think that everyone owes them something because they decided to not use protection or not to get an abortion. In the world that we live in now it is not everyone's NEED to procreate, because I mean seriously, there are some who really really shouldn't have. On that note I believe in what they did with the over-population problems that were faced in China. It was a very sensible thing to only allow one child. That way not only do they cut down the problem of running out of food and other terrible things that can come with too many people, but they also allow the children to get all of the attention they need growing up and that also ensures a little more preparedness in the parents. They conclude that if they can only do it once they better try their best. That breeds happier children. And no one say that because you had siblings your life was better because I know deep down everyone is missing some sort of attention from their parents and they blame the siblings....Point being however, I don't owe you women anything for losing your figure, your mind, your heart, and creating a "miracle" because you were selfish enough to split the pie even further and degenerating the lives of those who already exist. Thank you and I bid you some painful birthing. Thank you for wasting yourselves.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Dirty Little Secrets.

I have so many "dirty little secrets" it's not even funny anymore...Not like it was in the first place but now it's just ridiculous. So there's this boy. And I think I'm in this one thing and then I just had the most horrifying realization that I dated his brother. And I want to tell him but I don't and I don't know what to do. I had an awesome Christmas though....With probably one of the best presents I've ever gotten...Which I don't know if the person who gave it to me knew that they did....Maybe so. But I need a postcasrd now. Maybe I'll send you one from hell. Not to mention to other thing that can not be mentioned. I know I'm being vague but hey being vague is more fun than this other thing. And so now I'm lost in this labyrinth of my mind and mine alone becuase no one else knows whats going on completely. A few know some details but no one knows the whole story. I want to tell the whole thing to whome of which it concerns the most but I don't want to be that serious with this person. Here we go again. Reminding myself of how oblivious I am. What's with all these secrets I'm building. I never keep anything like this. Dirty little fuckin secrets. They need to released just like a pent up wild beast that can smell blood. They're there. Lurking in the back of my mind. Just waiting to be shout out in a drunken stupor. Always ready to ruin my life. So much fun was had that I don't want to ruin it though. I"m enjoying myself more than I ever have except for these things weighing me down. They're constantly on my mind. Eating away at my soul beucase of how horrible and naughty I've been. If it's one thing I wanted for Christmas it would be diplomatic immunity...I need to be able to talk without repercussions....

Monday, December 14, 2009

Miracles.

I haven't been around much. And I'm sorry to whoever decided that they liked my opinions becuase I have not been present to share them more. I feel like a different person. Like nothing is real. Nothing exists. I am nothing. Not in a completely negative sense but it just is.
Everything is not a lie, it just simply is on a downhill slope into the black nothingness that surrounds our present day lives. The emotional capacity of a human has lessen so far that we have to use things like this to get our thoughts and feelings out. What ever happened to writing a poem or calling up an old friend. Now it's nothing but "Hey I"ll just send them a text". Yeah that'll show you care. Puh-lease. Not only is communication on any sort of intelligent level 'sitting at a stand-still'(ironic, no?)but any sort of creativity in the lower levels is nonexistent.
However, I did not come here to blame mass communication of idiocy for all of my problems. Truth is, I've been hit fairly hard by the train of despair called stagnation. It's not that it's the same job. And it's not that it's the same people causing the drama llama to break out of it's pen. It's that everything else is still the same. It could be any amount of different people, jobs, situations, days, weeks, you name it. But the circumstances will always be the same.
I have my powers and other have their own to fight me. It's like a comic book battle between somewhat good and someone else who's still on the fence between good and evil themselves.
I've lost faith in the human race long ago and I often wonder how I can be a superhero when I find no real reason that people should still even inhabit the earth. Not only are we overpopulating and polluting and countless things that cause distress all over this green earth, but what do we even have to show for it?
I mean in all honesty. I stopped giving a damn about just about everyone anymore. For a while there I was concerned it every homeless transient person in my town was warm, but recently I"ve just lost it.
No big change happened to turn my faith or anything like that. No one abused my generosity or abandoned my trust, helpless and cold in a gutter somewhere. I've just completely and utterly lost faith.
If the world were going to end in 2012 I know for a fact I could survive. I would kick ass. But I don't want to. I don't have the will in me to preserve the species. Maybe I'm broken, or maybe just sadistic.
I'm not suicidal but I've coped with death and whatnot. I just don't know what to do anymore.
Stories of children giving up their sandwich at lunch to a less privileged student doesn't warm my heart. Nor does an elderly woman taking in the local stray cat or anything like that. Maybe it's because everything's been too played out and life is all cliche'd now and there's no such thing as originality or even veering from the beaten path.
I have not seen anything that has brought tears of joy or warmth to my eyes in so long I can't even remember the last time it happened. I am most definitely not a humanitarian in any way shape or form. And this was established well before this post and the onslaught of hopelessness. But this is crazy. Especially around Christmas....Maybe I need a Christmas miracle for once...
But being the pessimist I am, I'm not holding my breath.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Stop Padding Your Own Pockets....Bad Schoolboard.

Well now this is exciting.But most likely short lived because most of my keys seem to be missing like my specbar... But I am managing I suppose. I've never been able to access this from school before and sadly the only time i can I'm reduced to a crappy laptop in a sped class in which I've been put in by mistake. This just proves that this district needs more funding and decent counselors....for once.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

New Laptop.

*random smiley* I'm using a friends laptop and now I really wish I had one. Lately in my head I've been going over a rant that may actually be on Youtube...There is no such thing as a real lesbian. Now I don't really want to go over this because I would prefer not to get hate mail on this site but it is an interesting subject. Even though sexuality should not make a difference into your personality, which is why I do not understand the particularly "gay" things my friend does. They're not really gay. They are stereotypical things that females think gay men do. Which is completely untrue. Gay men are just like normal men. And gay women are the same. They just happen to like the same genitalia. Big fricken deal right? Apparantly so, because so many goddamn people make such a big deal about gay men with lisps and lesbians being butch or incredibly hot. I think it's bullshit personally. People are people. Gay or straight. It doesn't matter. My boyfriend likes rainbows, and trust me, he's not gay. And I like sports and I'm in weightlifting class and that doesn't make me a lesbian. Also it's not gay for a guy to say another guy looks decent. God forbid. Women do it all the goddamn time and we don't get ripped for it. No we get praised for self-esteem B.S. I don't think that's very fair. I think men should have the same social rights as women and not get knocked down for it. Gay or straight is not the issue. If someone is annoying by personality then yeah, you can leave em the fuck alone. But deciding not to talk to someone becuase they are homosexual is just stupid and ignorant. Now I know that I won't ba able to change the idiocy in the world but I just like to state my opinion about it. And my opinion is simple...Stop being a freaking retard.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Only a Week.

So finally I have regained my internet access. I've just recently become friends with my fiance's ex. I'm now weightlifting [go me for excercise. whoop whoop =) ], I've learned I can cook asian food. And I've had to interview a Cheeto for a speech class. Fun fun since you last heard of me.
Not like you would notice?
Who cares.
Anywhore...
I must return to work after a hiatus of about a week since labor has been screwed like a 14 year old in the 1800's. So yes. Off to the old grind...although I work more with a pizza cutter than anything. *blech*
So I have no new interesting ideas like I used to that would have been added to my blog or I thought I should add to a blog, now that I have said blog.
This seems to happen to me alot. I do something that would constitute an interesting or strange argument and at the first chance I get to use mine, I don't have one saved up.
Well.... To what few...maybe less readers I might have....Just you wait...I"ll get used to this. =]

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Virgin Odyssey.

Well folks....Looks like I'm officially a blogger now.
*insert smiley of your choice here*
Aside from Myspace,ack, I've never posted my thoughts anywhere.
I've just come to terms with the fact that I now do not care if anyone knows they exist.
I have some interesting ideals which if you become a follower, you will understand soon enough.
I highly doubt anyone will, but hey, who knows?Right?

Anywho....
I've just been recently reminded that becuase of my age I'm not allowed to say "back in the day..." for I have not seemed to had a back in the day. I can understand that the woman who told me was slightly over twenty years my own age, but I personally believe that I do. I mean cartoons and Saturday summer mornings can count. Becuase back in those days, those were my days. Therefore... I should have a "back in the day..." file folder. However, there will be more "back in the days..." to come.

For now I shall sign off....
Thank you.
Goodnight.